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It's very hard to say goodbye to someone you've known your entire life. On Saturday, May 16th a very close friend died of a heart attack. He had no heart problems, so no one can figure out what triggered it. My family called him "Nook". My Mother, sister and I grew up with him and his two sons - as close to family as someone sharing the same blood. It wasn't coincidental we had very similar last names. We grew up in a cheaper part of an expensive town in Rhode Island - both parents were single and had known each other since they were teens themselves. They loved each other, but neither said anything because they settled for the stinkier fish in the sea. As the years passed, my Mom remarried someone because of pregnancy (my youngest sister) and Nook jumped from one dumb relationship to the other. He moved to Florida because he was sick of issues with his family that had been brewing with his all of his ex-girlfriends. My Mother and him talked a lot, hinting that they loved each other every day. I guess he gave up on waiting for her to leave my Step-Father, so he found a relationship with another woman - his sons both said she was another "crazy lady". After that, we heard less and less from him because his girlfriend didn't like him conversing with other women. Then, this past weekend, he left us all behind. Mom regrets not following her heart and not getting his true feelings straight-forward. I feel as though she is taking the most brunt now. We are waiting to find out the date of service - I only wish we had been able to see him one last time. Then again, when do you know someone is going to pass?
Other than Nook, Spring semester ended last week. Mostly A's again. They want me to pay one more semester out of pocket before I can use financial aid, but I don't have the money for it. After losing my job back in January and going two months without my income, we have fallen behind on so many bills. I feel terrible having to beg for payment plans from everyone. My credit, which had been built to a good score, crashed in the matter of days when I had no paycheck. I hate the credit system. I was making payments on EVERYTHING, all on-time and ahead. Now, I can't even get a legitimate loan to help bring everything back to date. I owe so much. And all because I was in the hospital and working for an inhumane Barbie doll. I should have found an attorney, but it was a risk because Barbie's marry attorneys. Even when you build your life, it can all come tumbling down in an instant.
But life goes on. Even after loved ones pass away and you lose close-to-everything.
Other than Nook, Spring semester ended last week. Mostly A's again. They want me to pay one more semester out of pocket before I can use financial aid, but I don't have the money for it. After losing my job back in January and going two months without my income, we have fallen behind on so many bills. I feel terrible having to beg for payment plans from everyone. My credit, which had been built to a good score, crashed in the matter of days when I had no paycheck. I hate the credit system. I was making payments on EVERYTHING, all on-time and ahead. Now, I can't even get a legitimate loan to help bring everything back to date. I owe so much. And all because I was in the hospital and working for an inhumane Barbie doll. I should have found an attorney, but it was a risk because Barbie's marry attorneys. Even when you build your life, it can all come tumbling down in an instant.
But life goes on. Even after loved ones pass away and you lose close-to-everything.
Two Years!?
Wow - time has flown by! Deviant Art has changed so much! I signed on to find over 1,000 messages!
Sorry I haven't been around, everyone. My life is like the worlds fastest roller-coaster: I can go from highest to lowest in seconds, then it takes over 10 times longer to get back up.
For a quick summary of what has happened since 2015:
- Everything was nearly perfect. Bills were being paid, back into school to finish Associate's in Education, small vacations, engagement after 8 years (total),...
- Engagement ended mutually. He had become so involved in this "Professional Gamer" dream that he began sleeping in our office in front of hi
Long Enough
Oh my Gosh...
I haven't written a journal entry since 2013!? This is crazy!
I hope everyone is doing well, wherever you are in the world. A lot has changed in my life since my last entry (which didn't say much other than I was still alive.)
Basically, in 2013 I was forced out of my home because I fell in love with a musician... of course, a musician who lived on the street who I felt obligated to provide for being a friend. In short, I ended up living with my Dad and the musician ran away, quickly picking up another girlfriend and blocking me in every way possible.
If it wasn't for Mr. User, I wouldn't have found myself
Back in Action
Hello fellow deviantARTIST's!
Sorry it took so long, but I finally grabbed a few things at my Mom's. Things still feel very shaky to me - but my life hasn't been stable since High School, really.
ANYWAYS - I'll be able to update on a regular basis again.
What's new, you ask?
I got my license, and my first car - it's a brand new 2013 Chevrolet Spark. For those of you who think it's stupid to get a brand new car as your first car, well, I said that, too. But there are many positives SUCH AS: the car will build your credit and teach you financial responsibility (if you haven't already mastered that craft), it'll last beyond the time you p
It's Been Rough
Hey everyone -
I've had a rough couple of months (without a laptop). I'll go more into detail soon, I only have a few minutes to update.
Just thought you should know. I'm hoping to get my laptop back in a week or two so I can get back to managing my handful of groups.
Love you all! Stay positive! (:
- Keitilen
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